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  • Kristen

    Haters are gonna hate. What can you do? Kudos to you for talking about this, I hope you find peace with it.

  • RobL

    I love you Alison Rosen.

  • Minnie Pearl’s Hat

    You are wonderful. That is all.

  • DanInTheFalls

    You could see the pain in your eyes and it’s crap that the trolls are out there to always try and put people down. Keep doing your thing, and for the record.. you look great – disregard the trolls. =)

  • mb

    I hope someday soon you’ll be happy with who/what you are because only then you’ll find happiness in a relationship. You have a gizillion things to offer. Screw what other people think. Thanks for posting your very personal thoughts. Peace.

  • Neil T

    Well done addressing both issues with image and also the tard commenters.

    I moderate part of the “real” Adam Carolla Messageboard and what comments there are about your work are almost universally positive. I can’t find that comment you mentioned, I’m guessing it’s on adamcarolla.com, as the tard quotient is off the charts there. The “real” fans don’t even look at those comments.

    You probably don’t want to look today, but maybe have a look sometime in the future at where the long-term Adam fans hang out: http://www.carollaboards.com/

  • Markthorburn

    Thx for sharing. Try to remember that you are funny & pretty… and we all luv you too!

  • Logankeepes

    Alison,
    Everyone has a skewed self-image and everyone hates something about themselves. Don’t think you’re alone in that. You are legitimately top 5 most gorgeous people I’ve never met. Right now. Who gives a shit what you looked like 10 years ago? Your image from ten years ago has nothing to do with the here and now. You are so pretty and you deserve to feel as pretty. I know me saying this probably won’t make you feel prettier, but I feel I’d be doing you an injustice by not saying it. So keep doing what you’re doing because it’s obviously working. Oh and by the way, the people who wrote those comments were talking to themselves when writing to you, because they’re the ones who need to change. So they lash out at you to make themselves feel better. My psychology major is telling me that they have some deep-seeded insecurities of their own. But I digress. I love you and keep doing what you’re doing!

  • Cheesygoodness2

    Damn, that hurt, and it’s not even me. There’s never anything good to be had on that board, so I hope you’ll stay away. But hey, at least they say you’re funny… Teresa never even got that much.

    Seriously though, all that shit rattling around your head seems totally normal. The people who go through life with massive egos are the outliers. Do those feelings of insecurity ever go away? I don’t know… I’m skeptical. But I think that over time they start to seem less important, and maybe eventually you get to the point where stuff like this doesn’t matter. You ever talk to an elderly person who acts insecure? Hell no! They’ll cheerfully tell you all about their latest bowel movement without the slightest shred of self-consciousness. So I guess all we can do is try to chill out until we find ourselves trading poop stories with each other.

  • Donna

    Thanks for sharing! As hard as it was for you to post this, it is refreshing to hear your real thoughts and struggles. Everyone has issues and sometimes we forget that. This actually made me like you even more 🙂

  • Sarah

    Alison, this vlog easily made my day. As a 19 year old female who religiously listens to the Adam Carolla Podcast (probably the only one, right?), I can’t tell you how much I enjoy your presence and witty opinions on a daily basis. God knows I love Adam, but it’s so nice to have you to break it up and give a different perspective. I can relate to everything you are going through all too well and I wish you all the luck in the world. Weight/ body image issues have sadly become somewhat of an inevitable reality for the majority of women today and even though you may not be perfect, you have so many fans out there that love you exactly the way you are. You are smart, amazing, beautiful, and remember the people on those message boards are simply cowards who don’t deserve even an ounce of your attention or acknowledgment.

  • Rogerbrener

    What I’ve always loved about you is your willingness to open up about your deepest feelings with all ARIYNBF Family who care about you. You know deep down inside we all think your just Perfect the way you are. Just remember were powerless over people places and things and whats important is family, your health, and your true friends. Please lets do an ARIYNBF show soon. We miss you. Roger

  • Tbillini

    You rock. Don’t ever forget that. And don’t read what people say about you on message boards. I mean…uh…ya know. Nevermind.

    **hugs**

    🙂

  • I Love Alison Rosen!

    The internet is full of hostile jackasses who feel the need to anonymously share their negative opinions about anything & everything. It’s fucking annoying. For the record, i love you. Seriously. Not only are you funny, quick, and super smart…but i think you are absolutely, perfectly, and radiantly beautiful.

  • Idguru

    You…fat? Never…You look great. But I’m always willing to hold your pretty hair back as you purge into the toilet.

  • Chris

    Good for you Alison for posting something this personal. Fuck what other people think, cause if they can’t see you for the smart, beautiful, funny person that you are, then they aren’t worth your time. Keep up the great work on the podcast, and in life in general. You rock. Also, diet soda is the bomb.

  • Fernandroid07

    I like these more personal blogs. It’s like staring at you soul… Jk. Keep up the good work

  • Joe

    I’ve come to the conclusion that no matter how successful, attractive, rich, intelligent, funny, awesome, friendly (plus dozens of other adjectives) you are, there are always going to be people who don’t like you. And if you’re a public figure, some of those people are going to crawl out of the woodwork and post things on twitter, facebook and other places. You just have to do your best to ignore them and find a few good friends to hang out with. Life is too short…

    But I do like the comment “just work out”. I’ve worked out off and on all my life. I never liked it. It was always work. There were times when I vowed, for example, to run 3 miles 5 mornings a week. So I would do that for a while, and then one week I would only run 4 times and I would beat myself up over it. And I knew it was stupid because, after all, I DID run 4 times. But telling myself that didn’t help. I just think we set unrealistic expectations for ourselves sometimes. We shouldn’t set ourselves up for failure like that.

    Just remember Miss R — there are plenty of us who love you. AND….

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

  • Vagnermachado84

    Hi Alison!! I lov the job you do at the podcast and i’d like you to know that your vlogs are a special moment in the days of many people like me.. You are just so pretty and sweet that many people envy you and if they are trying to bring you down,it means you are above them. Hope to hear a rant on the next vlog about how much I and many others lov u, but none else more than I do!!
    @vagnermachado84

  • Dano

    Wow, Alison, I’m so proud of you for sharing such a MAJOR issue with your fans. I’m sure this wasn’t an easy admission for you. I hope you know that we all have body insecurities. As an example: During all my dating years, I was never with a woman who felt comfortable walking away from me while naked. They would always, sort of back out of the room, heading to the bathroom or wherever. Everyone has things about their body that they would LOVE to change. I’d like to have smaller love handles and a full head of hair. But that’s not me, with my bald head and not ready for the beach body. Just KNOW that you are a beautiful woman and you WILL find someone special. You just have to GET READY to let him into your life. I have faith in you.

  • The trolls should include a shirtless picture of themselves, since I am sure they are the pinnacle of fitness…

  • stef2dope

    You are beautiful just the way you are, don’t let the haters online get you down. As most of them are probably fat losers who stay at home most of the day, so they are probably just projecting onto you. Do you also struggle with food as well?

  • Chris

    You are a wonderful, beautiful woman. Don’t let trolls have any power over you.

  • Thank you for being brave and sharing. I love love LOVE people who are open and honest about their insecurities, and it makes me regard you even more highly to know that you feel what you feel and aren’t hiding it. You’re pretty great, and I love you a completely appropriate amount for an internet stranger.

  • boinkity

    Hi Alison. Being fat is a badge of dishonor that is unfairly deserved for most people. I hate to speculate this about you, but perhaps because of this lifetime struggle with your weight, you’ve developed that quick wit, and character, and personality that we love about you. I don’t know if you’ve realized this, but most women that are slender and attractive suck ASS! They are boring!!! Had you’d been a beauty all of your life, would you also suck ass and be boring? I say it is possible! Thank heavens you are a real person who’s had real issues that has kept your ego in check. Also, I just wanted to say I’ve had a secret wanton desire for Sara Rue for years, and now that she’s lost all her weight, I just don’t get all hot and bothered when I see her now. Also, I think it’s sexy when women eat bbq ribs. I think I need to shut up now.

  • boinkity

    dude! I thought her birthday was tomorrow!?!?

  • BuddyZ

    It’s a good thing you don’t read the comments on a regular basis because they get much worse. “Go fuck yourself” is the right advice for the troglodytes that post that garbage. I often wonder what type of shitbag parents raised the cowards that post anonymous insults on comments boards. But when you look at the grammar on the comments board you realize that you are dealing with pre-teens or head trauma survivors. I saw someone sent you a tweet the other day telling you to “know your role” on the show. Strangely it wasn’t Adam Carolla sending this tweet so I don’t know how this tool knew your role. Basically I am telling you what you already know. People are IDIOTS and the message board is a great form of birth control. You on the other hand are lovely and a ray of sunshine. Keep up the good work.

  • Mparky

    Love you Allison, quoting the comments helped a lot in showing exactly how graphic people can be in their cruelty. It is so easy to say “Oh, so and so is famous so who cares what people say”, your beautiful inside and out and you really opened my eyes with your vlog so thanks for it.

  • Scott

    You are beautiful, bright, and funny (in no particular order), and if there are haters out there, you have to sift them out! I deal with body image issues too… and I’m a guy! (No, I’m not gay)! I lost like 50 lbs a few years ago, and the fear of going back to that is something I can’t shake. Every now and then, one of my dick-faced co-workers will make a gesture like I’m gaining weight… It used to really freak me out, then I realized that they were just fucking with me to get a rise out of me. It’s like that “cunt” conversation on the podcast a few days ago, people only have as much power to hurt you as you give them.

    Not all guys are dicks like that! Keep your head up, and keep doing what you’re doing, minus worrying about what some balding (sorry Brian) douchetube who lives in his Mom’s basement and is going nowhere in life thinks of you! If I wasn’t married, I’d be chasing you myself!

  • Joey1

    I like people who speak with their heart.

  • Puttie

    Alison, you are beloved. We all wrestle with physical limitations and love your candor as it reminds us of our own. No one is immune, particularly as they age they find new limitations soon enough. From my angle, you are fortunate in so many ways and it is best to remind yourself of that instead. Keep up your great work and we wish you all the best in life. Big fan.

  • Jeez Alison, thanks for being open and raw and honest. You really are wonderful. This did make me see you differently, but in the best of ways.

  • Nathan

    Alison,

    You’re very brave
    I’m a fellow sufferer of this shit, so I understand
    You’re beautiful
    Keep being you and you’ll do just fine.

  • aprettygoodstart

    I feel like I have some of the Tom Arnold’s sexual predator instinct in me because this all made Alison seem more attractive. I’m hoping it’s more because of the strength part of talking about it than the vulnerability of being a fat girl on the inside.

  • Eastons3541

    this video blog is a goof isn’t it alison? please say it isn’t so

  • will

    You’re super cute and hilarious! And all the more so for talking about this publicly. Fug those trolls.

  • Gary

    Hope that talking about this, even if it made you uneasy in the moment, was also cathartic. I know how real it is when you feel a particular way about yourself even if it seems opposite from feedback you get from others. You’ve got an awesome future ahead of you, people love you, others will make obnoxious comments no matter what you look like, and in the end…best you can do is increase your own ability to love your life by being selective of who you allow to influence your feelings. Love your presence on the podcast and look forward to seeing/hearing more of you.

  • Jeffrey

    I literally had to rewind to the part where you mentioned the message board comment, Alison…Drop jawed is an understatement. Don’t let assholes like have no purpose in life than to hurt people behind the walls of a message board hurt you…You are so beloved by people who honestly care and I’m sending you the biggest hug across the miles…Chin up, Jeffrey

  • It boggles my mind to hear the trash people are willing to write about someone else when it’s anonymous. They become vicious and hurtful only for the sake of their own entertainment. It drives me nuts that wonderful people like yourself are subjected to that kind of abuse from cowards.

    Unfortunately, cowards are good at seeking out our insecurities and latching on to them. When I was in school, I was in love with playing football. I loved to compete. My junior year, I gained some stretch marks on my arms from lifting a lot of weights. I became very insecure about them do to assholes at school, and I quite the team. Never played my senior year, and I regret it so much. I look back at the missed opportunity and am reminded at just how silly our insecurities can be. They should never be allowed to effect the things we love, and they should never be viciously attacked by other people. Especially faceless people who hide behind a keyboard.

    I will post my honest opinion, in hopes that it can help offset some of the negative ones you’ve been receiving.

    Alison, you are such a beautiful, talented woman, who is such a joy to listen to. Your wonderful personality and humor as provided me many hours of enjoyment over the last year. I look forward to another year of following your work. Thank you so much!

  • bringerofchill

    Alison, I’ve always been the fat kid, I was for the most part lucky enough to have great classmates that didn’t make fun of me. But I have always felt uncomfortable in my skin. A few years ago I did lose a bunch of weight to be in a friends wedding. But I let the bad habits back into my life and put the weight back on. So I very much understand how you feel.

  • You’re gorgeous! 🙂 Look at all of the support you get vs. these pathetic basement dwelling trolls. Don’t stress.

  • Moe

    You are beautiful inside and out!!!

  • Matt

    Having been fat to morbidly obese for most of my life up until 4-5 years ago (I’m 33 now) I can definitely relate to finding it more difficult to shed the “fat” mentality then I did all those extra pounds. Being heavier then most of my friends & classmates from 6th grade through collage certainly effected my social development years. And yes it still effects me to this day now being over 80lbs lighter. However looking back I can honestly say they haven’t all been negative. I never would have been as thick skinned, independent, or have the sense of humor I have now had I not gone though the emotional trials I did being singled out and scrutinized by both peers and family. Not that there still isn’t a little bit of resentment there but I think those early scars have given me more personality and strength to deal with the trials of adult hood much easier and I know that is one of the factors to me being a better person and my life being much happier now. Anyway I appreciate you laying it out there and perhaps communicating your feelings on the subject better then I ever could my own. And thanks for being our new best friend! =D

  • Nicswen

    I commend you on your admission. In fact, I think it makes you all the more attractive, not just in a amorous(sp?) sense but as a human being as well. Unfortunately, trolls are incapable of recognizing this. However, the silver lining is that they are awesome to make fun of and expose!
    It’s different as a guy, but I also had a significant weight problem until I was about 16. 13 years later I still usually go for the baggier clothes and have issues being touched around my stomach or sides even though I am a total stud now (lol, jk).
    Through bringing up your difficulty with this issue you maintained your sense of humor and your charm even though it was tough. That’s talent. You also still flashed your amazing gaze.
    Since you came to ACS I have been a fan. You are smart, funny and posses a unique, quirky, down-to-earth charisma. I can’t think of any other public person that has quite that combination. I always thought it was cool that your ARIYBF followers were so loyal, engaged, and respectful, a rare feat for someone who has fans. If they got anything like this vlog on a regular basis I can totally see why.
    Anyway, keep it coming and keep it real. The cast majority of us think you are pretty awesome :).

    Nic

  • mb

    I hope someday soon you'll be happy with who/what you are because only then you'll find happiness in a relationship. You have a gizillion things to offer. Screw what other people think. Thanks for posting your very personal thoughts. Peace.

  • mchuge

    I haven’t checked in in a long time but I must redecree: Alison Rosen is awesome!

  • Donna

    Thanks for sharing! As hard as it was for you to post this, it is refreshing to hear your real thoughts and struggles. Everyone has issues and sometimes we forget that. This actually made me like you even more 🙂

  • Tbillini

    You rock. Don't ever forget that. And don't read what people say about you on message boards. I mean…uh…ya know. Nevermind.

    **hugs**

    🙂

  • I Love Alison Rosen!

    The internet is full of hostile jackasses who feel the need to anonymously share their negative opinions about anything & everything. It's fucking annoying. For the record, i love you. Seriously. Not only are you funny, quick, and super smart…but i think you are absolutely, perfectly, and radiantly beautiful.

  • Joe

    I've come to the conclusion that no matter how successful, attractive, rich, intelligent, funny, awesome, friendly (plus dozens of other adjectives) you are, there are always going to be people who don't like you. And if you're a public figure, some of those people are going to crawl out of the woodwork and post things on twitter, facebook and other places. You just have to do your best to ignore them and find a few good friends to hang out with. Life is too short…

    But I do like the comment “just work out”. I've worked out off and on all my life. I never liked it. It was always work. There were times when I vowed, for example, to run 3 miles 5 mornings a week. So I would do that for a while, and then one week I would only run 4 times and I would beat myself up over it. And I knew it was stupid because, after all, I DID run 4 times. But telling myself that didn't help. I just think we set unrealistic expectations for ourselves sometimes. We shouldn't set ourselves up for failure like that.

    Just remember Miss R — there are plenty of us who love you. AND….

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

  • PHERASHREK

    I know what you are talking about in a way. I was in a play at 18 and was in a studio changing when a gaggle of my co stars came in the adjacent studio. They were talking very matter of fact about someone when i realized it was me. It was a conversation about how ugly I was and how awful it must have been to kiss me in the show. Didn’t fully recover from that comment until last year at age 37. Spending your most impressionable years with a murder of assholes isn’t a good start on life, BUT… with a focus on getting on with your life and continuing to do what you love it subsides and eventually becomes a footnote, not your life. You are beautiful on many levels Alison. No worries. Enjoy this ride. Here’s a virtual hug for you sister.

  • The trolls should include a shirtless picture of themselves, since I am sure they are the pinnacle of fitness…

  • stef2dope

    You are beautiful just the way you are, don't let the haters online get you down. As most of them are probably fat losers who stay at home most of the day, so they are probably just projecting onto you. Do you also struggle with food as well?

  • BruceF

    I kind of want a diet soda now… Great heartfelt vlog! I agree, Alison Rosen is awesome!

  • boinkity

    Hi Alison. Being fat is a badge of dishonor that is unfairly deserved for most people. I hate to speculate this about you, but perhaps because of this lifetime struggle with your weight, you've developed that quick wit, and character, and personality that we love about you. I don't know if you've realized this, but most women that are slender and attractive suck ASS! They are boring!!! Had you'd been a beauty all of your life, would you also suck ass and be boring? I say it is possible! Thank heavens you are a real person who's had real issues that has kept your ego in check. Also, I just wanted to say I've had a secret wanton desire for Sara Rue for years, and now that she's lost all her weight, I just don't get all hot and bothered when I see her now. Also, I think it's sexy when women eat bbq ribs. I think I need to shut up now.

  • boinkity

    dude! I thought her birthday was tomorrow!?!?

  • Ms. Sydney

    It’s repulsive when troglodytes and homunculi of any sex freely opine about appearances. It’s a case of: The Internet #thingsthatsoundbetterthantheyare, I guess it’s the tradeoff for all the world’s knowledge at our fingertips. Everybody gets to participate.

    Now I like you way more for having exposed your feet of clay, including your well-turned Achilles’ heel!

  • BuddyZ

    It's a good thing you don't read the comments on a regular basis because they get much worse. “Go fuck yourself” is the right advice for the troglodytes that post that garbage. I often wonder what type of shitbag parents raised the cowards that post anonymous insults on comments boards. But when you look at the grammar on the comments board you realize that you are dealing with pre-teens or head trauma survivors. I saw someone sent you a tweet the other day telling you to “know your role” on the show. Strangely it wasn't Adam Carolla sending this tweet so I don't know how this tool knew your role. Basically I am telling you what you already know. People are IDIOTS and the message board is a great form of birth control. You on the other hand are lovely and a ray of sunshine. Keep up the good work.

  • Mparky

    Love you Allison, quoting the comments helped a lot in showing exactly how graphic people can be in their cruelty. It is so easy to say “Oh, so and so is famous so who cares what people say”, your beautiful inside and out and you really opened my eyes with your vlog so thanks for it.

  • Scott

    You are beautiful, bright, and funny (in no particular order), and if there are haters out there, you have to sift them out! I deal with body image issues too… and I'm a guy! (No, I'm not gay)! I lost like 50 lbs a few years ago, and the fear of going back to that is something I can't shake. Every now and then, one of my dick-faced co-workers will make a gesture like I'm gaining weight… It used to really freak me out, then I realized that they were just fucking with me to get a rise out of me. It's like that “cunt” conversation on the podcast a few days ago, people only have as much power to hurt you as you give them.

    Not all guys are dicks like that! Keep your head up, and keep doing what you're doing, minus worrying about what some balding (sorry Brian) douchetube who lives in his Mom's basement and is going nowhere in life thinks of you! If I wasn't married, I'd be chasing you myself!

  • Art

    So you’re saying you don’t know you are hot and confident? Cuz that’s what makes you hot.

    In your case, little lady, it means smokin’ hot.

  • I like people who speak with their heart.

  • Puttie

    Alison, you are beloved. We all wrestle with physical limitations and love your candor as it reminds us of our own. No one is immune, particularly as they age they find new limitations soon enough. From my angle, you are fortunate in so many ways and it is best to remind yourself of that instead. Keep up your great work and we wish you all the best in life. Big fan.

  • Jeez Alison, thanks for being open and raw and honest. You really are wonderful. This did make me see you differently, but in the best of ways.

  • Nathan

    Alison,

    You're very brave
    I'm a fellow sufferer of this shit, so I understand
    You're beautiful
    Keep being you and you'll do just fine.

  • aprettygoodstart

    I feel like I have some of the Tom Arnold's sexual predator instinct in me because this all made Alison seem more attractive. I'm hoping it's more because of the strength part of talking about it than the vulnerability of being a fat girl on the inside.

  • Eastons3541

    this video blog is a goof isn't it alison? please say it isn't so

  • Oatmealmitch

    wow. i think you just became my fucking hero. you’re beautiful and talented. absolutely amazing. fuck the trolls.

  • Dogjor

    Alison coming along nicely on the show. I like your “vlogs,” (I’m assuming that means Vagina-logs) but I think all of these guys are trying to be cool and hit on you?

  • Holly

    This video was so real, human, and perfect, and I cannot thank you enough for sharing it.

  • Winter is Coming

    I can relate. Thanks for sharing!

  • It boggles my mind to hear the trash people are willing to write about someone else when it's anonymous. They become vicious and hurtful only for the sake of their own entertainment. It drives me nuts that wonderful people like yourself are subjected to that kind of abuse from cowards.

    Unfortunately, cowards are good at seeking out our insecurities and latching on to them. When I was in school, I was in love with playing football. I loved to compete. My junior year, I gained some stretch marks on my arms from lifting a lot of weights. I became very insecure about them do to assholes at school, and I quite the team. Never played my senior year, and I regret it so much. I look back at the missed opportunity and am reminded at just how silly our insecurities can be. They should never be allowed to effect the things we love, and they should never be viciously attacked by other people. Especially faceless people who hide behind a keyboard.

    I will post my honest opinion, in hopes that it can help offset some of the negative ones you've been receiving.

    Alison, you are such a beautiful, talented woman, who is such a joy to listen to. Your wonderful personality and humor as provided me many hours of enjoyment over the last year. I look forward to another year of following your work. Thank you so much!

  • Mark in Toronto

    Hi Alison, I think I’ve heard this before but- You’re good enough, You’re smart enough, and dog-gone it, people like YOU. Much luv form Toronto!

  • Another female perspective…thank you so much! I know the female listeners of Adam Carolla are fewer…but I do enjoy hearing your voice and what you have to say. Honestly, your experiences make you all the more hilarious. Funny people go through some shitty stuff, but at least they have the last laugh (did I really just say that…). I won’t go into my own diatribe but I can relate, so I am appreciative of everything you had to say and wish you all the best and good thoughts and whatnot.

  • bringerofchill

    Alison, I've always been the fat kid, I was for the most part lucky enough to have great classmates that didn't make fun of me. But I have always felt uncomfortable in my skin. A few years ago I did lose a bunch of weight to be in a friends wedding. But I let the bad habits back into my life and put the weight back on. So I very much understand how you feel.

  • Justin F

    Hey Alison – I don’t usually comment much on these but just want to say you’re brave and beautiful. Don’t ever think twice about some dickhead whose life is so shitty that he has to write something hateful behind a computer screen. They aren’t the real thoughts of real people, they don’t matter. And as for you, people with insecurities are awesome. I love insecurities. Just know that you’re talented and gorgeous and I wish I could meet a girl like you here in NYC.

  • Tami

    Alison, thank you from the bottom of my heart to post this. I’m so sorry for all that you’ve gone through but like I said on your FB, I feel it humanizes you for people who don’t know you personally. We know you as that tough smart pretty funny as hell Alison. I have a friend who was chubby into her college years, and then when she moved to LA she lost weight and a lot of her guy friends would say, “Blah-Blah is so hot now that she’s lost weight.” That angered her so much. I wonder if it makes you pissed when you see guys who used to ignore you or bully you say different things now that you’re thin. It made my friend so compassionate to people who struggle with weight and she’s never ever catty. I’ve never gotten a catty vibe from you on the podcast. You seem very sensitive to so many people and that’s really awesome and rare.

    I wonder if it did hurt your feelings when Larry Miller called you a “healthy kid” and you and Adam joked that Larry called you fat. You laughed it off and then pretended to have a newfound eating disorder during that podcast. But I thought, “Wow, she just brushed that off.”

    And I always thought it was cool that you told Adam off in a very gentle and polite way when Adam told the girl who called in who wondered if her boyfriend was cheating on her that losing the weight was the solution. That was such a dick move on his part and he couldn’t be more wrong. Most of my girlfriends are not thin or even conventionally pretty and their boyfriends/husbands love them so much- they would never cheat on them. Adam didn’t help perpetuate that fucking myth.

    Wow. This took emotional energy out of me (that last paragraph, mainly).

    Thank you so much for sharing this. Rule number 1: Don’t read the message boards. Rule number 2: Don’t read the message boards. Rule number 3: Don’t read the message boards.

  • You're gorgeous! 🙂 Look at all of the support you get vs. these pathetic basement dwelling trolls. Don't stress.

  • Reece

    alison, wow….. its gonna be ok. for what it worth, this is the song that plays when i think of you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DSssKolk2Hw

  • Moe

    You are beautiful inside and out!!!

  • Having been fat to morbidly obese for most of my life up until 4-5 years ago (I'm 33 now) I can definitely relate to finding it more difficult to shed the “fat” mentality then I did all those extra pounds. Being heavier then most of my friends & classmates from 6th grade through collage certainly effected my social development years. And yes it still effects me to this day now being over 80lbs lighter. However looking back I can honestly say they haven't all been negative. I never would have been as thick skinned, independent, or have the sense of humor I have now had I not gone though the emotional trials I did being singled out and scrutinized by both peers and family. Not that there still isn't a little bit of resentment there but I think those early scars have given me more personality and strength to deal with the trials of adult hood much easier and I know that is one of the factors to me being a better person and my life being much happier now. Anyway I appreciate you laying it out there and perhaps communicating your feelings on the subject better then I ever could my own. And thanks for being our new best friend! =D

  • Karen Falat

    In love with you. Really. And I was even before I listened to this. I run to you every morning. Im a mom of three and while most 34 year olds have succomed to high waisted elastic pants, jazzersize and Celine dion, I am marathon training to you guys and laughing my booty off. Literally. I gained 130 pounds with my pregnancys and lost it all. In my stint as a fat girl I felt pain deeper than anything I have ever felt before. I ALWAYS hear ‘ Well you are skinny now, that part is over, you need to get over it’. But you dont. Your outsides may be pretty but your insides are scared. You are beautiful. Incredibly so. And your sensitivity is going to reach out further then you probably even know. Thanks. We have a silent soroity of pastfat girl now hot girl alpha delta whatthefuck and I feel you sister. With every mile I run I run back to me- it helps me sort out my thoughts and now running to you will take on even more of a deeper meaning. See you tommorow for a 12 miler beautiful. Keep doing what you are doing- your are incredible.

  • Nicswen

    I commend you on your admission. In fact, I think it makes you all the more attractive, not just in a amorous(sp?) sense but as a human being as well. Unfortunately, trolls are incapable of recognizing this. However, the silver lining is that they are awesome to make fun of and expose!
    It's different as a guy, but I also had a significant weight problem until I was about 16. 13 years later I still usually go for the baggier clothes and have issues being touched around my stomach or sides even though I am a total stud now (lol, jk).
    Through bringing up your difficulty with this issue you maintained your sense of humor and your charm even though it was tough. That's talent. You also still flashed your amazing gaze.
    Since you came to ACS I have been a fan. You are smart, funny and posses a unique, quirky, down-to-earth charisma. I can't think of any other public person that has quite that combination. I always thought it was cool that your ARIYBF followers were so loyal, engaged, and respectful, a rare feat for someone who has fans. If they got anything like this vlog on a regular basis I can totally see why.
    Anyway, keep it coming and keep it real. The cast majority of us think you are pretty awesome :).

    Nic

  • Marty

    I look forward to your vlogs, Alison! Thank you for sharing once again! I’m sorry there are serious assholes in the world that post shitty things about people. This sounds cliche, but I believe they’re often just jealous. And self-loathing. I enjoy listening to you. You could read the phone book, and I’d probably listen at least to the B’s LOL No seriously you are great! I wish the best for you! And I pray you find your Mr. Right some day!

  • mchuge

    I haven't checked in in a long time but I must redecree: Alison Rosen is awesome!

  • Benjamman

    Sending you a cyber hub babe.

    You really have to stay off the ACE boards because they are infested with a litany of douche nozzles. You may not know this, but Adam can be a hotbed of controversy which stirs up the A-hole pool a lot.

    Your candor, along with your intelligence is one of the things I like best about you. As a complete stranger you are completely relatable. This is why you fit well with Adam, and why the majority of his fans like you too.

    Just stay on your path. You are doing fine.

    Not to make you uncomfortable, but if I were single and you were willing, I’d totally hit that. (meant in a serious, but funny way)

  • Mushmellow

    Group Hug!

  • PHERASHREK

    I know what you are talking about in a way. I was in a play at 18 and was in a studio changing when a gaggle of my co stars came in the adjacent studio. They were talking very matter of fact about someone when i realized it was me. It was a conversation about how ugly I was and how awful it must have been to kiss me in the show. Didn't fully recover from that comment until last year at age 37. Spending your most impressionable years with a murder of assholes isn't a good start on life, BUT… with a focus on getting on with your life and continuing to do what you love it subsides and eventually becomes a footnote, not your life. You are beautiful on many levels Alison. No worries. Enjoy this ride. Here's a virtual hug for you sister.

  • Alison,

    I’ve never had the best opinion of myself either, so I can totally relate to a whole lot of what you are saying in this vlog. I’m a bit overweight, but I don’t think I’m hideous or anything. Still, when people who don’t really know me feel compelled to refer to me as “big guy” or whatever rather than my name, it can be a little painful inside. My brother and I actually look a lot alike, and he always had women interested in him, and was pretty popular, but for some reason, I’ve not been so lucky. I have always made some great friends, many of whom I still count as very close, but not making any headway with the ladies ever has not been so great for my ego. Anyway, I think you look quite nice as you are, and you should not listen to the 1% of the idiots out there who can’t help but say negative things on the internet! They are the exception that proves the rule that you are awesome!

    Tim

  • BruceF

    I kind of want a diet soda now… Great heartfelt vlog! I agree, Alison Rosen is awesome!

  • Alison, you’re totally hot I think, but you got to stop the single eyebrow raising thingee because you’re pulling off an unintentional Leonard Nimoy look. ^___^

  • TS

    I wish I knew what to say to make women feel better about themselves.

  • Ms. Sydney

    It's repulsive when troglodytes and homunculi of any sex freely opine about appearances. It's a case of: The Internet #thingsthatsoundbetterthantheyare, I guess it's the tradeoff for all the world's knowledge at our fingertips. Everybody gets to participate.

    Now I like you way more for having exposed your feet of clay, including your well-turned Achilles' heel!

  • Art

    So you're saying you don't know you are hot and confident? Cuz that's what makes you hot.

    In your case, little lady, it means smokin' hot.

  • Oatmealmitch

    wow. i think you just became my fucking hero. you're beautiful and talented. absolutely amazing. fuck the trolls.

  • Dogjor

    Alison coming along nicely on the show. I like your “vlogs,” (I'm assuming that means Vagina-logs) but I think all of these guys are trying to be cool and hit on you?

  • Holly

    This video was so real, human, and perfect, and I cannot thank you enough for sharing it.

  • I can relate. Thanks for sharing!

  • Mark in Toronto

    Hi Alison, I think I've heard this before but- You're good enough, You're smart enough, and dog-gone it, people like YOU. Much luv form Toronto!

  • Another female perspective…thank you so much! I know the female listeners of Adam Carolla are fewer…but I do enjoy hearing your voice and what you have to say. Honestly, your experiences make you all the more hilarious. Funny people go through some shitty stuff, but at least they have the last laugh (did I really just say that…). I won't go into my own diatribe but I can relate, so I am appreciative of everything you had to say and wish you all the best and good thoughts and whatnot.

  • bart polin

    Hey Alison! Real proud of you. You’ve come a long way, since I first wrote you over a year ago on Facebook. At least someone around here has the cajones to tell it like it is, girl. You’re gonna go far, Alison. You just proved it. Bless you, for the courage it took to get thru that. You’re not only honest, have integrity, and are a survivor, you give others the inspiration to reach for their goals as well. –Bart Polin

  • Justin F

    Hey Alison – I don't usually comment much on these but just want to say you're brave and beautiful. Don't ever think twice about some dickhead whose life is so shitty that he has to write something hateful behind a computer screen. They aren't the real thoughts of real people, they don't matter. And as for you, people with insecurities are awesome. I love insecurities. Just know that you're talented and gorgeous and I wish I could meet a girl like you here in NYC.

  • Tbird

    Alison, you’re beautiful. Inside and out. Keep doing what you’re doing. And remember, there are plenty of us non-trolls out here that love you.

  • Tami

    Alison, thank you from the bottom of my heart to post this. I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through but like I said on your FB, I feel it humanizes you for people who don't know you personally. We know you as that tough smart pretty funny as hell Alison. I have a friend who was chubby into her college years, and then when she moved to LA she lost weight and a lot of her guy friends would say, “Blah-Blah is so hot now that she's lost weight.” That angered her so much. I wonder if it makes you pissed when you see guys who used to ignore you or bully you say different things now that you're thin. It made my friend so compassionate to people who struggle with weight and she's never ever catty. I've never gotten a catty vibe from you on the podcast. You seem very sensitive to so many people and that's really awesome and rare.

    I wonder if it did hurt your feelings when Larry Miller called you a “healthy kid” and you and Adam joked that Larry called you fat. You laughed it off and then pretended to have a newfound eating disorder during that podcast. But I thought, “Wow, she just brushed that off.”

    And I always thought it was cool that you told Adam off in a very gentle and polite way when Adam told the girl who called in who wondered if her boyfriend was cheating on her that losing the weight was the solution. That was such a dick move on his part and he couldn't be more wrong. Most of my girlfriends are not thin or even conventionally pretty and their boyfriends/husbands love them so much- they would never cheat on them. Adam didn't help perpetuate that fucking myth.

    Wow. This took emotional energy out of me (that last paragraph, mainly).

    Thank you so much for sharing this. Rule number 1: Don't read the message boards. Rule number 2: Don't read the message boards. Rule number 3: Don't read the message boards.

  • robx46

    Great vlog. By that I mean it’s always been a pet peeve of mine with women & how they pretend like they are perfect. That, PERFECTION, to me is a turn off because I know it isn’t real. We all have things we would like to improve on with ourselves or that we struggle with every day. & I can’t remember a time where somebody shared something like this to me & I didn’t have more admiration for the person or find them more beautiful afterwards. This time is no exception. Anybody without a cold black heart (which unfortunately isn’t all of us, but most of us) should feel the same way.
    I hope a lot of women see this vlog, since they are more vulnerable to this specific issue regarding weight & body issues. Though even as a man, I get it, & I know the feeling. I think everybody does. I can imagine it is much harder though when you are in the limelight & have thousands of people see you & judge you, so stay tough & know you have come a long way. Give yourself more credit, you deserve it.
    Proud of you for this vlog, & all your vlog’s where you let us in. As a sane person on the internet, it is nice to hear real things from a real person just telling things as they truly are. Makes me gain a little more hope for humanity!
    I might be a good example of how this can happen to anybody. & in recent years I haven’t minded sharing my story & thoughts, because I’ve seen my struggles be able to help others (just like I’m sure your vlog will), & it even helps keep me on track. Very short version, I had it all going for me when I was younger & my folks did well when they made me but even that wasn’t good enough for me sometimes, since as a kid in this society, life will find ways to mindfuck you & suck confidence from you. There were people with much less going for them than what I did, yet they got by OK cuz they had self confidence, which I later learned I didn’t have as much of that as I thought I did.
    I managed to find ways to think less of myself, yet I had no good reason to. Basically, with me not giving myself enough credit for what I had going for me, it led to drinking & drugs, while some people might eat food in this situation. When I didn’t know how to cope with stuff as a kid, I drank like a fish as early as 13. In the long run, or even the short run, I didn’t quite get away from that one unscathed. I had the gene, that addict gene.
    Ah, so I did have a chink in my armor & a way to cope with myself when I didn’t get along with me, & to deal with stuff like a friend’s suicide at age 14. You can grow up fine, then something like that hits & you realize how fucked up life can be on top of dealing with hormonal charges, relationships, & all that crazy stuff. I knew I was an alcoholic at age 15, started messing with other drugs.
    Went to my 1st rehab at age 17. Yet through high school, I kept that stuff hidden & I was just thought of as somebody that loved to party. Which I did, I loved it. I had a great time doing it, while at the same time drowning my insecurities. Killing 2 birds with 1 stone. However, partying turned more into medicating, & before long I was full blown junkie well before I was even of age to have a legal drink.
    That is its own tale for another day. But the point is, just me not being happy enough with what I had & appreciating what I had led me to an unhealthy way of coping with it, & then that snowballed on me. After over a dozen rehabs & near death experiences, I got clean at 24, which sounds young but it was still a long 10/11 year run that I had. & that fight isn’t over. I need to battle it every day to some extent.
    Nearly 8 years clean now, I’ve had time. Time to learn how to live in my own skin without taking the easy way out. Not always easy, but you learn. It is still easy for me to be left wishing for more, or better. As a result of what I did to myself, I still have some physical & emotional issues I need to work out. What a long damn road. For that reason, I’ve acquired the skill of not over thinking & being happy (or at least content) in the moment, & while I haven’t perfected this “skill”, I’m a hell of a lot better at it now than I used to be! The alternative is misery.
    There is a serenity prayer for us addicts that in a few lines houses all the wisdom one ever needs to know to get by in this fucked up world. I think it can apply to this whole image issue as well. It is “god (higher power), grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, & the wisdom to know the difference”. I like that. It sounds like it can apply to just about everybody. The more you know!

  • Reece

    alison, wow….. its gonna be ok. for what it worth, this is the song that plays when i think of you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v

  • Karen Falat

    In love with you. Really. And I was even before I listened to this. I run to you every morning. Im a mom of three and while most 34 year olds have succomed to high waisted elastic pants, jazzersize and Celine dion, I am marathon training to you guys and laughing my booty off. Literally. I gained 130 pounds with my pregnancys and lost it all. In my stint as a fat girl I felt pain deeper than anything I have ever felt before. I ALWAYS hear ' Well you are skinny now, that part is over, you need to get over it'. But you dont. Your outsides may be pretty but your insides are scared. You are beautiful. Incredibly so. And your sensitivity is going to reach out further then you probably even know. Thanks. We have a silent soroity of pastfat girl now hot girl alpha delta whatthefuck and I feel you sister. With every mile I run I run back to me- it helps me sort out my thoughts and now running to you will take on even more of a deeper meaning. See you tommorow for a 12 miler beautiful. Keep doing what you are doing- your are incredible.

  • Marty

    I look forward to your vlogs, Alison! Thank you for sharing once again! I'm sorry there are serious assholes in the world that post shitty things about people. This sounds cliche, but I believe they're often just jealous. And self-loathing. I enjoy listening to you. You could read the phone book, and I'd probably listen at least to the B's LOL No seriously you are great! I wish the best for you! And I pray you find your Mr. Right some day!

  • Benjamman

    Sending you a cyber hub babe.

    You really have to stay off the ACE boards because they are infested with a litany of douche nozzles. You may not know this, but Adam can be a hotbed of controversy which stirs up the A-hole pool a lot.

    Your candor, along with your intelligence is one of the things I like best about you. As a complete stranger you are completely relatable. This is why you fit well with Adam, and why the majority of his fans like you too.

    Just stay on your path. You are doing fine.

    Not to make you uncomfortable, but if I were single and you were willing, I'd totally hit that. (meant in a serious, but funny way)

  • Mushmellow

    Group Hug!

  • Alison,

    I've never had the best opinion of myself either, so I can totally relate to a whole lot of what you are saying in this vlog. I'm a bit overweight, but I don't think I'm hideous or anything. Still, when people who don't really know me feel compelled to refer to me as “big guy” or whatever rather than my name, it can be a little painful inside. My brother and I actually look a lot alike, and he always had women interested in him, and was pretty popular, but for some reason, I've not been so lucky. I have always made some great friends, many of whom I still count as very close, but not making any headway with the ladies ever has not been so great for my ego. Anyway, I think you look quite nice as you are, and you should not listen to the 1% of the idiots out there who can't help but say negative things on the internet! They are the exception that proves the rule that you are awesome!

    Tim

  • Alison, you're totally hot I think, but you got to stop the single eyebrow raising thingee because you're pulling off an unintentional Leonard Nimoy look. ^___^

  • TS

    I wish I knew what to say to make women feel better about themselves.

  • Joe

    It is… I was a day early.

  • Beelzebob

    Holy crap you are hot, funny and give fat girl head! JACKPOT!!!!

  • greius

    You are alright baby. Relax.

  • Joe

    It is… I was a day early.

  • Beelzebob

    Holy crap you are hot, funny and give fat girl head! JACKPOT!!!!

  • greius

    You are alright baby. Relax.

  • BobinAtl

    Awesome vlog. Such honesty. I always thought you were smart, funny and very pretty. While all that is certainly still true, I have gained a whole new respect for you as a person. Thanks for sharing. And Happy Birthday!

  • WitStream1

    I must compliment you on your self-described “meltdown”, for you handled it so wonderfully. The fact that you were overweight and bullied explains why you are so smart and funny though. For the longest time I was like: “wait…this chick is cute, and is also hilarious and brilliant. WTF gives?” You are the rarest of breeds, and whatever dude snatches you up is going to be one lucky MFer. Stay positive and believe the roll you’re on in life isn’t going to end anytime soon!

    Oh, and thanks for trying out for the Adam’s news chick role! Now please cover up the reflection of the light fixture in the background with a poster or something already. 😉

  • WitStream1

    So, you’re saying you want to hit on Alison? Duly noted.

  • lido

    Thank you for being so brave and so honest. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out, and you’re right that those comments are made by trolls who don’t deserve to be in your presence!

  • My (already high) opinion of you has grown after watching this.

  • BobinAtl

    Awesome vlog. Such honesty. I always thought you were smart, funny and very pretty. While all that is certainly still true, I have gained a whole new respect for you as a person. Thanks for sharing. And Happy Birthday!

  • WitStream1

    I must compliment you on your self-described “meltdown”, for you handled it so wonderfully. The fact that you were overweight and bullied explains why you are so smart and funny though. For the longest time I was like: “wait…this chick is cute, and is also hilarious and brilliant. WTF gives?” You are the rarest of breeds, and whatever dude snatches you up is going to be one lucky MFer. Stay positive and believe the roll you're on in life isn't going to end anytime soon!

    Oh, and thanks for trying out for the Adam's news chick role! Now please cover up the reflection of the light fixture in the background with a poster or something already. 😉

  • WitStream1

    So, you're saying you want to hit on Alison? Duly noted.

  • Robbandroll

    Man. The letter she read about 7 minutes in really hurt me even though it wasn’t directed at me or someone I know. If not for Alison I’d have dropped the Adam Carolla podcast and I think Alison is among the funniest and most talented people I have come across. I just hope she stops reading things from her detractors.

  • lido

    Thank you for being so brave and so honest. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out, and you're right that those comments are made by trolls who don't deserve to be in your presence!

  • Ben H

    Alison – The honesty and vulnerability you show is so incredibly rare these days. I thoroughly love your vlogs and everything you do on the Adam Carolla show. Coming home to these videos at night are one of my favorite things, even when they deal with heavy shit. Love you girl!

  • Ben H

    Alison – The honesty and vulnerability you show is so incredibly rare these days. I thoroughly love your vlogs and everything you do on the Adam Carolla show. Coming home to these videos at night are one of my favorite things, even when they deal with heavy shit. Love you girl!

  • exboy99

     Alison Rosen I think you’re GREAT!  Happy Birthday sweet girl

  • exboy99

    Alison Rosen I think you're GREAT!  Happy Birthday sweet girl

  • Roy

    Hi Alison, I loved your share. You might be surprised to find out how much compassion and shared sufferring is out there on weight issues. It’s extremely painful, and isolating, for those who go through it. I starting going to a support group for those with eating disorders and it was the best decision in my life. The compassion and acceptance I found there is beyond anything I had imagined was possible. Keep reaching out! Hugs.

  • Roy

    Hi Alison, I loved your share. You might be surprised to find out how much compassion and shared sufferring is out there on weight issues. It's extremely painful, and isolating, for those who go through it. I starting going to a support group for those with eating disorders and it was the best decision in my life. The compassion and acceptance I found there is beyond anything I had imagined was possible. Keep reaching out! Hugs.

  • Chris

    I will never understand the psychopathy of a person who deliberately posts something untrue and hateful for amusement.   But you’re right, looking at message boards never is satisfactory, since acknowledgement is all the praise they want/need. 

    On a side note, since when did society need everybody to be so confident?  I’m neurotic and I like it.  Isn’t that what made stuff like Seinfeld popular?  There’s something very unappealing about a person who has no self-awareness or insecurities and I feel that isn’t said enough.

  • Chris

    man, i just love you more every day! total girl crush going on over here. you are way more awesome than you give yourself credit for. 

  • Chris

    I will never understand the psychopathy of a person who deliberately posts something untrue and hateful for amusement.   But you're right, looking at message boards never is satisfactory, since acknowledgement is all the praise they want/need. 

    On a side note, since when did society need everybody to be so confident?  I'm neurotic and I like it.  Isn't that what made stuff like Seinfeld popular?  There's something very unappealing about a person who has no self-awareness or insecurities and I feel that isn't said enough.

  • Chris

    man, i just love you more every day! total girl crush going on over here. you are way more awesome than you give yourself credit for.

  • Tsimon

     Aw sweetie, you’re beautiful and a great girl – lots of love to you. And happy birthday to us!

  • Tsimon

    Aw sweetie, you're beautiful and a great girl – lots of love to you. And happy birthday to us!

  • Zabduh

    Alison, I also was a chuncky teen and lost the weight my senior year of high school, but I still have those body images in my head. You are beautiful and wonderful, don’t change who you are, and fuck those assholes that are being mean to you. Daylight is probably not their friend….

  • Zabduh

    Alison, I also was a chuncky teen and lost the weight my senior year of high school, but I still have those body images in my head. You are beautiful and wonderful, don't change who you are, and fuck those assholes that are being mean to you. Daylight is probably not their friend….

  • Stevestephens1983

    You are so freaking awesome. 

  • Stevestephens1983

    You are so freaking awesome.

  • Charles Boyle

    Pretty honest stuff.  You are way more normal than you probably realize Alison.  I have to think that saying all of that was a positive for you even if it didn't feel like it at the time

  • Charles Boyle

    Pretty honest stuff.  You are way more normal than you probably realize Alison.  I have to think that saying all of that was a positive for you even if it didn’t feel like it at the time

  • Charles Boyle

    Pretty honest stuff.  You are way more normal than you probably realize Alison.  I have to think that saying all of that was a positive for you even if it didn't feel like it at the time

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